Jules Renard once said, “Being bored is an insult to oneself.”
It is like he was speaking to only me.
I live with the constant fear that no mater what I achieve I will always want more.
What is the point in working 80 hours per week to achieve nothing with nothing-people. I know that sounds angry, and it it is. And you know what else? I understand a person’s ability to be angry. Fighting for no or small reasons, doing silly things – luckily I channeled a lot of my early life (16-22) anger into sport. Playing rugby is a release for anger as is pushing yourself in the gym, track or on a bike until it really really hurts.
I only had one reason in life to be angry, and compared to most things that people go though it it is nothing – but to me, and at the time, it was a big deal for me. I’m just trying to be honest here. Yes I was angry and I’m the type of person who wants to know why and know the reason why you feel a certain way, and why things happen. Things happen for a reason.
I was angry because I’m dyslexic.
When I think about the times I was really angry there are two clear times in my life that really stand out.
Being dyslexic at a posh grammar school was not fun. I was not the best in my class. And I like being the best. Being dyslexic meant I could not learn things in the same way. What was more frustrating was that I knew I was smarter other people but I just couldn’t express how smart I really was. I got no respect.
That made me angry.
I got my respect in other places – not in the classroom. Those places were in Sport and well girls…
The anger-dyslexic-based school experience reminds me of the Paul Simon Kodachrome lyrics “I think back to all the crap I learnt at school. It’s a wonder I can think at all. My lack of education hasn’t hurt me none. I can read the writing on the wall.”
I got the respect I graved by always having a good story. By being able to hold a conversation, by being charming as possible. If you are interesting, and have had a interesting life then who cares about grades and tests.
So with friends we organized the best parties. We cycled 2000 Mikes through Europe. I was the person who never said no to a drink.
That helped, a bit.
2. A year ago
I was angry a year ago.
I was angry because I was bored again like at school know I can do better. I know that sounds big headeded or arrogant but I know I can. In fact I know I could have done better work-wise, but it just didn’t work out. Actually is that my fault it didn’t work out? maybe. I just don’t think it suits they way I do things. Like in school I didn’t learn in classes doing tests. At work I can’t do one things over and over. I need freedom to be creative to do different things.
Between anger number 1 and anger number 2 I was working for a small internet marketing agency in London learning and doing amasing things with great customers. I miss it. Oh and I was running a small male grooming website on the side.
I told myself I wanted that again, but without going backwards. So I did and here I am.
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